The Sea

Flocking to the sea
Crowds of people wait for me
Sea gulls scavenge
Steal ice cream
Worries vanish
Within my dream

I left my soul there,
Down by the sea
I lost control here
Living free

Fishing boats sail past the shore
No singing may-day any more
The sun is shining
The Water's clear
Just you and I walk along the pier

I left my soul there,
Down by the sea
I lost control here
Living free

A cool breeze flows but mind the wasp
Some get stung it's worth the cost
I'd love to stay
The city calls me home
More hassles fuss and lies on the phone

I left my soul there,
Down by the sea
I lost control with you,
And living, living,
And I, living, by the sea

lyrics : Morcheeba

I miss the sea as much as I miss u, mia nickage.

Photos courtesy by : Nino. titis. Miki

a scene for us..

I saw a transjakarta's driver with his daughter..

I saw a father and a daughter reading together on the kids' books section..

I saw a grandfather had a cool conversation with his lil grand daughter..

I saw a mother,grandma,and grand daughter sharing laughs..

It's a big city,

And I still see such scenes there yesterday..

People sharing their love with their kin..

After cynism and sarcasm words,

Even from the closest one.

And at the end of the day,

I finally realized,

It's clearly proven that we can't forced against the fate,darling..

We're trying so much hard to make it happen..

Just like what I said in our conservations last nite,'Hati kita gag jodoh'

I'm numb and tired.

I feel nothing.

Not even tears.

I hope someday we will have those scenes

With our loved ones.

no crossroads for us,mia lemon..

I see your back..
That small but strong one..
I wanna hug u baby.
But I know I couldn't.

I've left my past away..
I let that numbers vanished..
Just to welcoming you into my heart
Unlocking that empty room
It's been empty for quite long,maybe u'll find a spider web there
I don't care if its going to be happy end or not.
Well,actually I want it to
But To feel that feeling again is enough for me now.
The joy,
The excitement,
The heartbeat,
The jealousy,
The laughs,
The butterfly in my stomach,
Aahh,I forgot how it feels
Till u appears.

But then,
You just drop by for a while there
I have to let you go
Because I know,we have nothing to pursue
Though we have,it will be a long and winding road
You spinning my world around
The one who mesmerizes me.
the one who stunes me.
The one who makes me forget about number and bla bla.
The one whom I have to admit,
That I'm loving u anyway,my lemon..

Rhymes,rhymes,rhymes
I wanna walk in the same line with you,
Not just 2 lines side by side to the same horizon
And only meet in a crossroads,
Or maybe there never be crossroads for us?

Why can't we baby?

*36 months after the last 'love' word coming out of my mouth*

coffee should be black as hell..

well, yesterday was a public holiday..

we celebrated Islamic's New years or 1 Muharram..

and I kinda boring that day..

I had an appointment to go to the swimming pool with couple of my friends.

errr, i cant swim. but i try to ;p

And suddenly we cancelled it.

And I dont know what to do then.

my sister was off with her friends..

So after i woke up from my beauty nap, i chose to go to my favourite place when i get bored....Beauty Saloon.

hahahaha...

I have a fave beauty saloon near to my house.

it's kinda cozy, not too big and the price is affordable to me.

And i can order Illy coffee and delicious cheese cake from a cozy cafe right to it..

i used to enjoy my me time there..

then suddenly one of my besties asked me to 'ngopi2 cantik' at bakoel koffie in Cikini..

So, after i got my hair done *it smells soooooo nice and i like the 

shape of my hair* *hihihi, rather been lazy to put my hijab on*

I just flew away to Cikini..

And we had our mager time..

Doing something that unimportant and stupid..

And i got those proverb being written in the wall right behind our chairs..

and I like the ambience of this place..

Reminding me of my grandparents' house..

especially the tiles, huhuhuhu..

So, my boring day has been saved by my beauty saloon and my besties..

Ps. I didnt drink any coffee there because i already drank an illy in my beauty saloon. I didnt wanna take a risk of being zombie in the next day :)

run.run.run.

Pekerjaan,
Teman,
Love life,
Passion,
Dan entah apa lagi yang saya pikirkan dan terjadi di hidup saya akhir2 ini.
Semua itu cukup membuat saya lelah.
Bukannya saya tidak bersyukur,
I thank for what I've got.
But I'm tired now.
Saya,manusia yang sulit mengontrol emosi dan pikiran.
Dan semua random things itu semakin memperburuk emosi saya.
Dan pastinya org2 di sekitar saya.
And I thank again,I have great people all around me.
Yang pastinya udah pada gregetan pengen bacok saya,heehehehe..
I need sometimes to back off from all of this.

Now,here I am..
Sitting all alone in a boarding room..
Trying to figure out what has been happening these days.
Trying to find back the real me.
And what I really need.

I'm in my getaway mode.
I hope I can find back myself when I get back to jakarta.
See u.

dear besties,im sorry..

Seorang teman tiba2 'menarik diri'nya dari lingkaran kehidupan saya..
Tiba2,karena sebelumnya kami masih ketawa,hang out,joking,nyanyi2,dan konyol2an gag penting bareng..
Sometimes to release the stress and the tension of our life..
We also have our plan together..
We are just that close.
Dan tiba2 saja tembok tebal itu ada diantara kami.
Saya tidak tahu apa yang membuat dia untuk mendadak membangun 'tembok cina' itu.
I say sorry to this person,
Even I say sorry everyday..
But this person suddenly shut me down from this person's life..
I feel like I'm being ousted..*rasanya kaya kalo didepak dr mayor foursquare,hihi..*
Y tdnya ada di dalam lingkaran pergaulan,skarang jadi tersisihkan..
I hate it.
Buat saya,teman itu sama dengan keluarga.
Makanya kalo ada temen yang ngambek,saya paniknya setengah mati.
Apalagi kalo yang ngambek itu first ring or besties saya.
Bisa over lebay paniknya,just like this one.
Siapa saja boleh untuk tidak berteman dengan saya.
I'm okay with that,karena tidak semua orang cocok dengan saya.
But at least,give me a reason.
Shout and confront with me.
It is better than ignoring and deleting me from ur life just that.
My untouchable told me 'u are a loveable and also a hateable person.but if this person really is ur fren,this person will love u more than hate u.'
So,hey kamuuu..
Ngambeknya udahan yaa..
Saya pusing iniii..
Kerjaan juga lagi overload,
Jadi stresnya menumpuk.
There are a lot of interested things out there.
And it will be more fun if we do it together,rite? *i guessss ;)*
Ill never stop saying sorry.
Because I don't wanna lose a friend like u..
A very easy going,spontaneous,and full of determination friend.
But I have a limit.
And I'm not that patience.
When that day come,all I can say to myself is 'give it up kid,u can't win them all'.

The thing that makes me want to cry is I'm losing the best friend I ever had -my best friend's wedding

do u know that words can kill us?

Do u know that words can kill a person?
Do u know that words are the source that make my friend get stressed?
I love u all,
In fact,I will stand for u if anything happen..
But please,please accept me as who I am..
My achievement,
My physical things,
My passion,
My ideas..
Please,because I need ur support a lot,
Just to convince me that I am loved..

Do u know that words can affect someone's self confidence?
Do u know that words can change a child's life?
do u know that words can build a child's personality?
Because u all are important for us.
Ur words,
Ur gesture,
Ur opinions,
Are everything for us,at least for me..

Then who is to blame if some of my generations aren't treat urs well?

Is it a satanic cycle?
Then who is to blame?

We love u all..
its our nature..
Its in our blood..

And me?
I love u always..
For me,u are my everything..
For me u are my top priority,
So please accept me as who I really am..