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Pekerjaan,
Teman,
Love life,
Passion,
Dan entah apa lagi yang saya pikirkan dan terjadi di hidup saya akhir2 ini.
Semua itu cukup membuat saya lelah.
Bukannya saya tidak bersyukur,
I thank for what I've got.
But I'm tired now.
Saya,manusia yang sulit mengontrol emosi dan pikiran.
Dan semua random things itu semakin memperburuk emosi saya.
Dan pastinya org2 di sekitar saya.
And I thank again,I have great people all around me.
Yang pastinya udah pada gregetan pengen bacok saya,heehehehe..
I need sometimes to back off from all of this.

Now,here I am..
Sitting all alone in a boarding room..
Trying to figure out what has been happening these days.
Trying to find back the real me.
And what I really need.

I'm in my getaway mode.
I hope I can find back myself when I get back to jakarta.
See u.

dear besties,im sorry..

Seorang teman tiba2 'menarik diri'nya dari lingkaran kehidupan saya..
Tiba2,karena sebelumnya kami masih ketawa,hang out,joking,nyanyi2,dan konyol2an gag penting bareng..
Sometimes to release the stress and the tension of our life..
We also have our plan together..
We are just that close.
Dan tiba2 saja tembok tebal itu ada diantara kami.
Saya tidak tahu apa yang membuat dia untuk mendadak membangun 'tembok cina' itu.
I say sorry to this person,
Even I say sorry everyday..
But this person suddenly shut me down from this person's life..
I feel like I'm being ousted..*rasanya kaya kalo didepak dr mayor foursquare,hihi..*
Y tdnya ada di dalam lingkaran pergaulan,skarang jadi tersisihkan..
I hate it.
Buat saya,teman itu sama dengan keluarga.
Makanya kalo ada temen yang ngambek,saya paniknya setengah mati.
Apalagi kalo yang ngambek itu first ring or besties saya.
Bisa over lebay paniknya,just like this one.
Siapa saja boleh untuk tidak berteman dengan saya.
I'm okay with that,karena tidak semua orang cocok dengan saya.
But at least,give me a reason.
Shout and confront with me.
It is better than ignoring and deleting me from ur life just that.
My untouchable told me 'u are a loveable and also a hateable person.but if this person really is ur fren,this person will love u more than hate u.'
So,hey kamuuu..
Ngambeknya udahan yaa..
Saya pusing iniii..
Kerjaan juga lagi overload,
Jadi stresnya menumpuk.
There are a lot of interested things out there.
And it will be more fun if we do it together,rite? *i guessss ;)*
Ill never stop saying sorry.
Because I don't wanna lose a friend like u..
A very easy going,spontaneous,and full of determination friend.
But I have a limit.
And I'm not that patience.
When that day come,all I can say to myself is 'give it up kid,u can't win them all'.

The thing that makes me want to cry is I'm losing the best friend I ever had -my best friend's wedding