My Best Afternoon Date..

I find my best afternoon date.
In the mid of monday traffic jam of Jakarta, the common traffic jam that in another day i'd probably curse day and nite.
It was just us, both of us.
Sharing our very own intimate thoughts.
Talking about the most personal thing of each other.
About me,about u, about our secrets.
About the basic questions of life.

I will always remembering that day.
The day we sat and relaxed in a coffee shop.
Sipping our own coffee cup,
Laughing, contemplating, questioning.
Watching the traffic in the street down there.
Waiting the sun to be set.

That was one of the days i'll never forget.
The day i had ur name in my coffee cup, the name that i'd like to have as mine.
That one afternoon I'll keep playing over and over in my head.
A day that i can't bring myself to tell without a sharp painful sense in my heart.
This is my love that once was.

I love u, still.

Nothing In Life Is A Coincidence

The Sunset Catchers..

"There is a third dimension to traveling, the longing for what is beyond " - Jan Myrdal

Baru kembali dari ‘ritual menggosongkan muka’. Kemana? Ya seperti biasa, tebak2 aja sendiri ya, hehehe..

Dari perjalanan kali ini, ada beberapa pertanyaan mendasar yang come up dari saya atau dari teman2 seperjalanan saya. ‘Apa yang saya cari dari perjalanan ini?’, ‘Apakah perjalanan ini sia2?’, dan pertanyaan2 lain yang kadang2 suka pop up aja di kepala.

In every journey, i find new insights. Insights bisa datang dari temen2, bisa datang pas lagi free diving, bisa datang pas lagi stargazing ngitungin bintang jatuh, bisa datang pas lagi rame2 nongkrong ngobrol nggak penting tapi ternyata ujung2nya itu penting, bisa dateng pas lagi leyeh2 di white sandy beach, bisa datang di mana saja, kapan saja, dari siapa saja.

Buat saya, nothing in life is a coincidence. Begitu juga dengan perjalanan ini. Saya ketemu orang-orang yang memberi banyak insight di kepala. Bayangin aja, di tengah laut pikiran saya disentak begitu aja sama seorang temen. Coincidence? bukan.

Saya banyak berdialog dengan diri sendiri. Hal yang jarang saya lakukan di tengah hiruk pikuk Jakarta, di tengah orang2 yang sepertinya ribet dengan kehidupannya sampai lupa berhenti sejenak untuk menarik nafas dan menikmati hening dengan diri sendiri atau sekedar berinteraksi secara manusiawi dengan orang-orang lain disekitarnya. Tempo kehidupan yang melambat ‘memaksa’ saya juga untuk berjalan lambat. I’m in a slow motion mode. Disinilah waktu saya untuk berpikir. Waktu untuk diam, untuk menurunkan ritme. Tempat favorit saya?selalu di dermaga.

Jadi jawaban dari pertanyaan ‘Apakah perjalanan ini sia2?’, jawaban saya ‘tidak’.



Crystal clear!

 

 

Sunrise Serenade.

 

My room's view, super hot!

Breaking Dawn..

PS. Dapat info, kalo di pulau tetangga yang tidak jauh dari ‘rumah’ saya di sana sudah dibangun bandara dan akan segera selesai. Yang berarti akses akan semakin mudah dan semakin banyak orang yang kesana. Sedih saya dengernya. Karena pertanyaan yang selalu muncul tiap kali saya pergi ke suatu tempat yang masih sepi dan kearifan lokalnya masih kuat adalah ‘ sampai kapan tempat ini akan bertahan diam seperti ini?’.

Yah, semoga kedatangan kami2 ini yang ingin escape dari polusi kehidupan tidak ‘mengontaminasi’ kehidupan dan kebudayaan orang lokal. Just be a responsible traveler, ciao Bella!

 

i'm not broke.i'm just a broken-hearted girl.

Since the beginning,i already know what is in the finish line.
It's nothing.
No trophy or anything.
Then why do i keep walking on this path?
I don't know.
Do u think i'm hepi?
No.this is a long and winding road.
 Bumpy and give me deeper scars in every mile.
And i have to walk in this road by myself.
No other wanderers to be shared with,because they think i take the wrong road.
Then why?
Because i love u.
U,the one that i can't have.
That unfortunately complete me.
The one that i already know what's goin to be written in the last page of our story.
My first ring told me to stop.
Don't go through that path.
But i said to them,'don't worry,i know where and when to stop'.
And this the end of the road.
This is it.
And yes,there's nothing in the finish line.
Except me.with my wounded heart.

Don't u worry boy,i won't take u from her.
I'm not a mean girl that make another girl suffered.
maybe we could be together in another life.
complete each other soul.
and live happily ever after.
I wish i met u years ago boy,i wish.

A 24 hours of Road Trippin'

Libur lebaran kemaren saya dadakan road trip sama seorang teman. Dadakan karena nggak niat sama sekali dan dadakan karena dilakukan di akhir libur panjang saya. Nggak ada ekspetasi apapun di perjalanan ini. Saya Cuma mau lihat pantai, pasir dan menyepi. Bahkan nggak kebayang apapun tentang temen seperjalanan saya ini, hahahaha.. kami nggak pernah jalan bareng, ketemuan pun juga bisa diitung pake jari, komunikasi juga Cuma lewat social media. Jadi apapun yang mungkin terjadi selama perjalanan, semuanya belum kebayang di kepala.

PEER TULISAN!!

Okeeeeee... Peer tulisan gw banyak yaaa, nggak di kantor nggak di jurnal adanya peer menumpuk selalu *maaf curhat colongan sedikit*.

hemmm.. let's make a reminder's list :
1. Vietnam - Kamboja Getaway
2. Krakatoa Getaway
3. Karimunjawa Getaway

i'll update it veerryyyyyy sooooonnnnnnn.. *cross fingered* ^^

While My Sister Watching SuJu (don't ask me why??!!)

I Just found out that it's been more than 6 months i don't write anything. hmmm, I think i can blame it to all the social media around me. Path, twitter, facebook, u named it.

i can write short sentences to express every emotions that been jumping around in my head into social media. maybe i should rewrite all of my writings in social media together and see what kinda writing it composed. Good idea,huh?

but still, writing without any limitation of words is the best one. that's why i still need my journal here. 

soooo, how's life anyway? hmmm, my professional life is getting hectic and hectic and more challenging. i like it. it's like a new toy for me. and i'm still going around and travelling to make me sober and keep my sanity, thou' sometimes i feel super exhausted that i only spend my weekend to hibernate.C'est La Vie riteeeeee....

And my love life? hahahaha, as usual,it always be complicated. Oh yes, i'm in love with this guy now. so much in love that i thought i will only felt it to 636. But unfortunately, I can't have him :'(. Why? ahhh, u will understand it someday :). 

so, writing this journal accompanied by the songs from the past a.k.a 90's era makes me feel sooooo.... indescribable.

I'll be back soon.